Well, we have been anxiously awaiting news that we once dreaded. We're hoping that one of these months we'll find ourselves pregnant. It's been a roller coaster ride of emotions since we started trying. For so long, we've been trying to avoid getting pregnant. We wanted to make sure we really felt ready before we began that part of our journey together.
The time did come when we both felt like we were ready to start growing our family; however, we were just starting to think and talk seriously about starting our family when I was offered the opportunity to spend three months in Europe. Obviously, that was not the best time to get pregnant. So we thought maybe we would be able to come home from our vacation with a European souvenir. We felt particularly optimistic after visiting the Temple of Vesta and the House of the Vestal Virgins in the Roman Forum. (The Vestal Virgins represented fertility in Ancient Roman Times.) But we weren't that lucky. Since then its been a bunch of highs and lows.
We've had weeks filled with happy but nervous anticipation, followed by big disappointments (more disappointment for me than Eric as he says he won't get too excited until it actually happens). Friends keep telling me not to worry, but not to wait too long to seek out information about our fertility. However, the medical establishment seems to say something different. My doctor's office doesn't even want to see a couple to discuss fertility until they have been trying for at least a year. That's a lot of ups and downs, if you ask me.
So right now we're sitting on the fence. Do we seek help? Or do we just keep trying? Or do we stop trying all together and just have faith that it will happen when it happens? It seems that many people have plenty of advice to offer. I've read articles on the Internet and books from the bookstore. I've talked with friends and family members. So many opinions. So much advice. I appreciate all of it, but unfortunately it doesn't help with the disappointment.
I guess we'll just keep playing the waiting game for a while longer.
