Oh... The Waiting

I don't remember feeling this impatient since I was a small child. I haven't quite pinpointed why it is exactly, but I just feel like the days can't go by fast enough. There's so much waiting and we're not even pregnant yet. Then again, maybe that's why I can't stand the waiting. We are so eager to start this phase of our lives that as the weeks and months go by and we find ourselves without the news we keep hoping for, I grow more anxious and impatient. I keep telling myself to focus on everything else in our lives and everything will work out. It's hard to be really convincing though. It's like a I have a boomerang flying around in my head. When I have a thought about our future family, I force myself to think about something else. But my mind always makes its way back to that feeling inside of me... the longing for that new experience.